he cried no tears

Brain cram…

I’ve been studying for 2 weeks now and I’m still on chapter 5! Damn SQL! This book is such a snoozer! I hope I pass the test next month…

Thinking…

So yesterday my boss of 5 years and a really close friend of mine opens up about his current situation with his boyfriend. After 13 years of gay-marriage, his bf wants to make a transition to Seattle Washington. As he explains the story to me, I can feel the tension in his voice and the pain that radiates from his heart. My boss isn’t spontaneous, he’s the type that tries to avoid change at all cost. He’s kinda the guy that has everything figured out. Good career, big money, beautiful house, awesome truck - and now, with a boyfriend that wants to move away.

I can relate in every way. I once had a boyfriend that lived with me that decided to move away. In my case, I couldn’t follow. The day that I dreaded had finally come and gone. Stranded alone with a broken heart, I was left to decide what I wanted out of my life and out of the relationship that had just left me. The plan of five years had finally begun.

Now, after three years nothing much has changed. I still love him, but time plus distance equals PAIN - SUFFERING and APATHY.

The PAIN of not being able to hold the one person that you love…  being deprived of kissing them goodnight and wishing them a good morning.

All the while I sit here trying to catch my breath, SUFFERING from a PAIN so deep and so real that every muscle in body aches, every thought is tainted with the idea of moving on to someone else.

After three years I feel increasingly APATHETIC towards this relationship.

Hearing sad news about a long-term relationship coming to a potential end hurts like a blade slowly piercing my heart. What do I say to comfort my friend, when I’m faced with a similar obstacle.

shediedforloveat3am:

I’ve never been in a worse situation than now

 Keep your head up. Things will get better!

Shit to learn…

Damn. About 30% of these breakout sessions are way over my head. I need to hit the books again to stay up to date. Argh! I just with shit stayed static. Oh well…

People at conferences….

Ok. So I’m at a week long conference today. It’s the HP Conference here at the Venetian. Tons of people… Ten thousand to be exact. Everyone has their little name badges wrapped around their necks… their HP Discover backpacks hoisted on their shoulders and a smartphone or tablet pc either up against their ear or right in their face. It’s quite interesting to watch people interact with their new technologies. Even with the guest speakers lecturing, tablet pcs and iPads are running, people are playing games or on FaceTime chatting with friends back home giving the thumbs up and whispering into the front camera of their iPads, “I’m in Vegas baby”. God how these devices have changed and revolutionized the way humans interact. No longer do we sit still, listening to the speakers and handwriting notes or ideas, no longer do we take still images to share with friends back home, we now turn on the camera/video capabilities record and send them the pictures or videos in realtime via email. Just an observation from this forum…

FYI, my iPad and iPhone stayed in my backup during the lectures. I’m not one to record every second.

"grab somebody sexy tell him hey… Give me everything tonight…"

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Lee’s,

Kaimal Mark II Lens, Kodot XGrizzled Film, No Flash, Taken with Hipstamatic

Dry Spell…OVER

lovesimplyispossible:

:D

 What?????? LOL, tell me the juicy details! Hah!

Diary of Zeta Armada: Understanding →

zeta-armada:

I’m starting to understand how my mother can turn her back on people, I have a friend who will remain nameless , but for this convoy let’s name em Mr.p. I’ve know for a long time 8 years now, yet everytime he drinks or gets mad he happens to take it out on me and I don’t do much but grin and bear…

 I have no idea who you’re talking about Zeta! =) Just hang in there.

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Found this in a magazine! Lol

Watching the hunt at work…

Secret-closed door meetings… whispers in the halls… people getting fired. It’s like a modern-day Salem witch hunt. Just hope and pray that they don’t find anything on you.

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Unusual for Vegas this time of year. I’m just glad we’re not in the hundreds yet!!

6’5”

Ok…. So my bestfriend is meeting someone tonight for sex off of Adam 4 Adam. The boy he’s meeting is 6’5”, all I can picture is how big his cock should be! Lol. Hope my BFF has a good time!

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Chinatown Mall Vegas

Why I Skype…

<click> Skype
<input> *password
<click> Sign In
……………………
“You’re not on”
<click> Skype
<click> Sign Out
<click> Shut Down
……………………
*tear falls*
“Maybe tomorrow”